Love unconfessed............

Dearest You,

The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I ..........

II.
Though I could ne'er see
laughter ripples on your face
or hug you tight
when you really need one.
Though I could ne'er
wipe off  tears
rolling down your cheeks
or hold them in my palm
as precious pearls.
Though I could ne'er
walk with you at a starlit night,
holding hands,silently
taking all your fears away.
Though I could ne'er arrange
surprises on  your birthdays
or celebrate life
unoccasionally.
Though I could ne'er
lend you my ears
or offer my shoulders
in moments of pain.
Though I could ne'er give you
'a gift' which you like
just to see a smile
on your tired face.
Though I could ne'er hold
tears of joy
for your small little
accomplishments.

Though I could ne'er tell you

that ' I LIKE YOU'

coz I understand  you deserve much better

why to bother you,unnecessarily .

Still  O Sweetest heart
I care for you

from a distance though!!!

for
The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I ..........

III.

I do not exactly remember
when did it all began
you became a priority
in my daily prayers.
To every cheerful face
I come across
'Smiling with a spark'
I feel you!
Whenever I espy
a shooting star
I just wish
for your wish come true.
My dreams often
bless your dreams
with my soul sincerely yearning
for your happiness and esteem.
Whenvever I turn the pages of newspaper
to read horoscope of the day
it's your's always
which I read first!
I do not know why
but when it comes to judging people
guys particularly,I compare them to thee
and unsurprisingly none matches up!
That day also
I believed in your dreams
today also I assert
You'll be a great man one day!
Whenever I'm sad
and cry my heart out
I know you can never be there
Still,I only think of you!

I often convey my love

to butterflies and sparrows and winds

I hope they carry it to you

unknowingly though!

for
The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I love!

IV:
I won't measure my love-true love,deep love,mad love ,selfless love etc etc.It's unimportant.Let it be just LOVE for the sake of LOVE.I just wish for your happiness,that you live all your dreams.

I'll never confess it to you.Never.Few things are best when left unsaid.I comprehend you have a lot of aspirations from yourself ,from life where I somehow do not fit in. You truly deserve an angel who'll love you heart and soul and will get your love in return.And for this I have no regrets, no grievances towards God,towards you,towards me or any other.It's destiny,I apprehend.As I said your happiness is of paramount importance to me . May you get the best in life!

Another important thing here is that I LOVED.Yes surprisingly ,I loved someone and I'm happy about it and the best thing is that I Loved YOU.(Hey would you believe that ever since I have known you I did not have had even a crush on anybody else?Forget about attraction ,lol :P.It's been some six years.Long time,no?).Yeah it's like that.

My love is not the greatest of all.It might not grow with time for togetherness is essential for that.But my love for you will remain as it is.You'll always be in my thoughts and prayers,and that's a promise.Love(for me) was tough.Unloving is tougher,infact unachievable.

The fact is that I do not deserve YOU.

The truth is that I'll always love you,from a distance though!!

Take care.

Sigh!

Could ne'er be Yours

Me

PS:This is a work of pure imagination. :)

Most prized possessions ...

                                              Unremembered acts of Kindness

                                              Unsaid Words and Unshed Tears,

                                              and an Unborn Dream

                                              are few of my most prized possessions (till date)!!

To all the Sweet Souls...

Hello Everyone,

How beautiful a day can be when kindness touches it,isn't it?Well,here's my tribute to all the kind ,beautiful and sweet souls for YOUR benign presence on earth which makes this planet a place to live in ,inspite of all the other odds.

YOU bring smile to forlorn faces,
YOU lend your ears when somebody really needs one,
YOU inspire people to success ,
YOU keep hope alive in humanity,
YOU care for everyone around,
and offer your helping hands,
YOU encourage people with your promising words
YOU spread love and happiness in the aura you happen to be
and YOUR ever so beautiful thoughts radiate positivism in space..........

In all ,YOU touch lives in your own special way ,enriching them each day passing by. The light of the Lord that burns within YOU, kindles the dying flame of despondent souls.

O YOU ,I THANK THEE !

WE are truly blessed to have YOU.

Be the way YOU are,always, for the world really needs YOU!


Stay Happy,Stay blessed! 

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PS:We always criticize the wrong but seldom do we praise the right ones.This was a small attempt from my side to thank all the sweet souls round the earth for their goodness including you.

PS:Since this post is all about YOU, write something about YOURSELF instead of commenting on how I have written this post,and if not,a simple smiley would do!

True happiness...

True happiness comes when you create something
and you are honestly appreciated for it!

Behind.....

Behind the misty silence
Is a soul that cries so hard
Behind all those hope and wisdom
Is a fearful, brittle heart.

Behind all those laughter ripples
Is a pain that is kept hidden
Behind the walls of reasons
Are answers, unquestioned.

Behind the ties of space and time
Is a void that does not seem
Behind every journey that begins anew
Is a boulevard of broken dreams…..

The God I believe in!!

I'm not particular about going to temples,and giving hefty charity to the trust.(Instead I would feed the poor myself.)

I'm really not bothered whether to offer flowers first or do 'tilak' of the idols in my own temple at home.

I do not believe in reading long texts before almighty (which are mostly in sanskrit ) whose meaning I don't know.

I could not always appreciate the rites and rituals ,for example killing (an animal or person) in order to propitiate a deity.

I do not believe in fasting in the name of God.(I won't mind being hungry by choice.)
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I am a Hindu on paper.But if you ask my original self my religion is none other than Humanity.

I'm as keen to visit Ajmer Sharif,Golden temple and St. Joseph Cathedral as I wanna go to Shirdi Sai dham or on Baba Amarnath yatra.For I love the charismatic,peaceful and tranquil atmosphere that prevails in all of these sites.

I love colours,and gujhiya and papad and I celebrate Holi.
I love crackers and candles and sweets and I celebrate Diwali.
I love cakes and gifts and Santa Clause and I celebrate Christmas.
I love the sight of moon and sewaiyyan (vermicilli) and I celebrate Eid.

In all,I love the God I believe in,I love HIS PEOPLE and I love MYSELF and thus I CELEBRATE LIFE which HE has gifted me.
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The God I believe in is personification of LOVE.

I talk to my GOD more than I actually pray.We have a very informal (& friendly) kinda relationship.HE says,I listen,I say,HE listens.

I believe I'm in HIS heart and HE is in mine.

HE never lets my HOPE extinguished and helps me go through good and bad times equally well.

HE makes me understand that there are people who are more unfortunate than me and so I should not cry (so- long)over pity things.

Till now HE has always given me what I deserve and may be a little more.

And in return HE asks me or expects me nothing.Nothing means Nothing!

It's just that I want HIM to inculcate a never-ending GOODWILL in me and and and to bless the unfortunate!

This is the GOD I believe in.....and you know.....I LOVE HIM!!



PS: Well, this is the God 'I' believe in.These are strictly my views,which I don't enforce on YOU.Neither I discard the God 'YOU' believe in.Still I feel if you share a little similar views about your God,may be OUR GOD will be happy!

My sorrows are all mine alone...

You share your happinesses with me,
I'll augment it manifold
You reel off your pain
I'll try to lessen the cold.

I'll also share my joys with you
If you do not at all mind,
but my sorrows are all mine alone
'un-said' and perhaps 'un-confined' !

She DIED….

She cried
No one bothered
She screamed
No one heard.

She was bruised
No one cared
Her happinesses even
ebbed unshared.

She tried to explain
No one understood
Her eyes all swollen
No one ever looked.

She even wrote
Alas! no one read
Elusive emotions
Remained unsaid.

Then one day
out of the blue
When ‘grey’ became
‘blackish hue’
She DIED….
(Yes ,an early demise…
No,it wasn't a suicide )

She DIED
And Everybody
Sympathized
(‘ poor soul ’,
they hyped)

WHY?
Tell me
WHY?

My List

There are so many things we wanna do in life but could not always. The academic pressures,shortage of time,deadlines of other 'important stuffs',elders restrictions,social constrictions,circumstances,responsibilities and at times our own fear,laziness or even our mood ,prohibit us to do so.But fortunately or unfortunately we all have just one 'LIFE' to live on.

.......................... And so I'm very much keen to execute "My List" before I take my last breaths on this planet.

Here it goes............

• Do my masters 

• Get a good job

• Travel as much as possible-both India and Abroad 

      

• Learn Swimming 

• Learn  Skating

• Donate blood

• Save someone's life

• Donate my eyes

• Get one of my works published

• Write a novel

• Learn Guitar and Synthesizer

• Work and run a charity organization

• Go for Mountaineering,preferably Everest  

• Build a sandcastle

• Learn to cook some good stuff ,esp cakes n cookies 

        

• Learn German and Spanish

• Travel in a Ship

• Inspire someone to success

• Make a difference in someone's life

• Go for a week long trip with friends 

       

• Fight for a genuine social cause

• Own my own personal library 

• Read as many good books as possible

• Learn Dancing(salsa or belly dancing) 

• Sing in public 

• Have a pair of rabbits  

          

• Own a latest camera

• Do some good Photography

• Paint on canvas

• Own a Telescope 

         

• Go on an African Safari

• Practice Driving Car(which I learnt once)

• Do river rafting 

       

• Own a house of my dreams

• Have my own garden with a big fountain 

• Go to the top of Eiffel Tower 

          

• Ride on a hot air balloon

• Watch a cricket/football match in stadium

• Live in another country for atleast an year 

    

• Go for a long long drive in an open-top car

• Get married to guy of my dreams and have a happy family with him

• Leave this world a bit better      

PS: This is all I could think of now.The list is subjected to upgradation.
PS:I was a little occupied these days.But now I'll blog on a regular basis and will very soon visit you guys.

~love and prayers

Good/Bad

There's no limit to being BAD,but there IS a limit to being GOOD.

Get Well Soon!

We all need to be CURED,in one or the other way.

GET WELL SOON!!!

Happy Friendship Day

Hello Blogosphere,

Mine sincere and heartfelt wishes for you all on this friendship day.Stay happy,stay blessed.Well, I believe a friend is "one of the nicest things you have and one of the best things you can be" .So,

Here's a small poem from my side exclusively for all mine blogger friends.

"Though we have never watched

laughter ripples

across each others face

or huddled close

in moments of pain

or wiped off

each others tears

or walked together

on an endless road

or blathered

for hours unknown

Still, you are my friend.

I hold a space for you

In this world

For

I honour the universe

That lives within you

For inspiring me always

I'm grateful to you.

I count the blessings

You bestow on me

I value the time

You devote for me.

I appreciate the words

you encourage me with.

I acknowledge the manner

you correct me,forthwith.

And above all
I love the way

you make me feel

your tender care

rejuvenates my zeal.

For all this

and much more

I sincerely

thank

thee.

Thank you for being there

Always!"

~Saumya :)

Once again,

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY

Love you all :)

Me in Wonderland

 What would life be without Daydreaming?

Eh!....Scary,isn't it?

Well ,here's 'Me in Wonderland',things  I want to do or I daydream of.

I wanna run in a beach for miles and miles  towards the evanescing sun. I wanna sit at the top of a tall tower late at night for some unknown hours  and continuously eyeshot the aura of twinkling species. I wanna dance in a garden when it’s quietly raining to the beats of some endless music with no one looking around. I wanna walk for hours and hours ,on a cloudy day, in a an endless road  surrounded by the red maple trees on both the sides  and the wind blowing softly and a flute being played in the background (I would not mind , flowers falling on to me as I take my every step forth. :P) .I wanna travel round the whole world, whole world- and appreciate the exquisite creativity of not man less but of God more and capture all in my camera. I wanna climb the Everest atleast once. I wanna do river-rafting in Pacific Ocean round the earth. I wanna sit by the side of a beautiful river in an unknown country and play my guitar. I wanna drive a bike (yeah bike)on a National Highway  at some 100km/hr (with no trucks and cars around) in the midnight. I wanna write a book someday(not a textbook for sure) ,hopefully an international-best-sellar(:P). I wanna rob a bakery shop once(:P)- cakes, pastries and chocolates are ever-so-tempting to me. I wanna shout my name aloud at the dead of the night and hear the echo back.
.............................................................................................................................And the list goes on.

I doubt if even one of these will come true. Yet ‘DREAMING’ alone is BEAUTIFUL. Life is not only facing the REALITY which is at times harsh and bitter but it is also FANTASIZING about the things that you dream of. Some colors exist in dreams that are not present in the waking spectrum. They add to our LIFE ,they make us SMILE, they make us INFINITE and somehow kindle us with HOPE and that MATTERS A LOT!

~love and prayers

LIGHT

Today I could see more LIGHT embracing the earth.
Is it  'coz of my heart burning
or 'coz  my soul's radiating ?

Grief

              I made you believe in 'YOU',

              you thrashed my belief in 'ME',

              I fought the world for 'YOU'

              you end up hurting 'ME'.......

LOVE

Love kindles just unexpectedly
and nurtures with no expectations.
It is quintessence of holiness
semblance of sacrifice
immortal ,unpretentious
it is 'beauty' epitomized.

They say we fall in love,O ne'er
we just suddenly begin to 'rise'.

'Tis far above the heavenly abode
far beneath the secrets of our soul
and wherever the two coincide
is the fount of love
perhaps origin of life.

And I wouldn't be wrong if I surmise,
'GOD' is nothing but LOVE personified.

The Best Secret

"You always know who in the world you are praying for,but you never know who in the world is PRAYING FOR YOU(secretly)."

Isn't it the BESTEST SECRET?So BEAUTIFUL and so PURE.

It really feels so good naa when all of a sudden you come to know that someone REMEMBERS you,someone CARES for you,someone GIVES you his/her TIME(the only precious thing) .And above all ,that, someone PRAYS for your well-being ,for your happiness,for your dreams-come-true ,selflessly and secretively ,may be in lieu of his/her own desires.I reckon this to be one of the best aspect's of  life.The happiness bestowed thereby lingers and is preeminent.One seems to be overwhelmingly blessed when touched by such kindness.

Helping hands and praying lips-What else one craves for?

That 'someone' may be your friend,your sibling,your love,your neighbor,your servant ,the one you 'dislike' or the one whose existence you aren't aware of .It can be anyone anywhere.So friends,

                   keep this beautiful feeling in view,

                  someone is always thinking good of you. :)

                                                                             (from an sms)

~love and prayers

It hurts!

Me:  (smilingly)  It's okay.Never mind.
She: You sure naa?
Me:  (a little more smilingly)  Yeah,I'm all fine dear.You carry on.
She:  I knew that.You are so good.Chal,see ya later!

"If only you could see a drop of tear, that fell from the left corner of my eye, just when you turned  back and how quickly I wiped it off."

      At times it hurts.It's just that we do not want to hurt back. But.......It hurts!

What's so much there in the 'Surname'?

In every home a burning ghat
In every home a gallows
In every home are prison walls
Colliding against the walls
She falls ......................................

Sati System,Female Foeticide,Dowry Deaths,Honour Killing.Any guesses what's next in the 'honourable' series?The scenario today is Grandmothers killing grand daughters,brothers killing sisters,Mothers slaughtering daughters and Fathers smothering sons.Murder of the BLOOD,by the BLOOD ,for the BLOOD.Who said Man was born free.I'm amazed at this horrendous show of man's inhumanity to man.Truly awestruck.And the irony is that these barbarous and  savages justify their 'deeds' under the aegis of 'FAMILY HONOUR'.

We all grow up with the weight of history on us.  Our ancestors dwell in the attics of our brains.Probably that's the reason we look forward to Best lifestyles,Vision 2020,'Educated Society' but we cannot do away with CASTEISM  and COMMUNALISM.It is not only limited to the lower strata but to the 'high-born' equally. I wonder what's so much there in the 'SURNAME' that differentiates between humans,that brings the devil inside out ,that causes a huge massacre of love ,of emotions,of feelings,of bonds and of relationships. Incidentally and interestingly, it is ironic to see participants in the debate over the caste census argue that ideally, caste should be done away with ‘except in matters of marriage’!Anything more stupid ?We all are against RESERVATIONS but we do not support Inter-cast Marriages.I have no other words, but I feel pity on the narrow-mindedness of the 'intelligent elites'.

Is it always the Caste factor or something else?Probably loving-against-the-will-of-parents.Whatever it is ,the 'mindsets' will have to change to match the pace of fast-moving -world.

Let our RELIGION  be KINDNESS ,our CASTE be HUMANITY.

Rains,I'm loving it!

It's Sunday and it's eventide.The road is wet,the sky is grey,garden more green and ambience more clean .Yep ,It rained an hour before.Quiet,cozy gentle rain. The balmy breeze blew across the body and exhilirated my soul .Had a walk on the terrace.Got drenched completely.It was refreshing as never before after the fiery heat.AWESOME! Adding to it, the smell of the earth.Truly Divine.

It's  drizzling .The rhythm of the dripping pearls is soo  pleasant and penetrating.I had  plate-full of pakodis(obviously prepared by mom :P) and a hot hot cup of  adrak ki chai (hehe..made by me :D) ,Ah! My favourite tracks in the background and me having a nice conversation with my family.Perfectly PERFECT.I'm loving it all.It is these small little moments that maketh the LIFE.

Thank you God! I'm HAPPY(Do I always need a reason to be so?).

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I'm singin' in the rain,                                          

Just singin' in the rain,
What a glorious feeling,
I'm happy again!
I'm laughing at clouds,
So dark, up above,
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love.
Let the stormy clouds chase
Ev'ryone from the place,
Come on with the rain,
I've a smile on my face. :)

~love and prayers