Lonely. Confused. Misunderstood. Life these days is in I-don’t-want-to-live-anymore phase. Living is but an uncalled-for burden. Things aren't literally working. I’m hating everything around. Everything. Succinctly, it’s hurting to be me. Nothing seems to heal-no music, no friends, no tears. Lost in life’s cobweb I'm struggling furiously to find my way. My writing skills are gridlocked. Words don’t come to me or rather I’m just too numb to feel and express (and I so very deprecate this fact). There are so many other things I wished I could do but I couldn't or didn't.
Though I kind of know what I do not want in life but I really don’t know what all things I actually yearn for.I even don’t know what all I can do, what I cannot. I don’t know what I deserve, what I do not. I don’t know what I should do, what I should not. Whoa , that's my present state of mind.
I hate to go to bed at night and then I hate it even more to wake up in the morning. Fake and blunt smiles outside ensconce the pain within. Folks, jokes and toasts do not please me. My quondam dreams are thrown into hell and I no more feel like fantasizing.
You ask me "What happened?"
And I reply " L.I.F.E dear...............'LIFE' happened"
Ehh??
Yeah!!
i was happy k tum ek break k baad vapas creative mood me aa gyi ho .....but now I,m also confused and hurt after read this one , dont knw the reason of this disappointmen.but.i really wish..k you jus cheer up ur mood with all is well. Dont worry nothing stay for so long ....
ReplyDeleteHi Saumya...I don't know what exactly you're going through...but please be patient...this phase will surely pass someday and happy days will come for you too...just don't loose hope...
ReplyDeletePS: I'm asking you to have faith because these days I'm also living with hope only and I guess I'm also in the same phase as you're, so I can understand you...take care...GOD bless you... :)
Hi......
ReplyDeleteThis too shall pass,just remember that
ReplyDeleteTake Care :)
And i thought, i am the only one who is blessed to experience this! This is one of those feeling which i call Virtual Nirvana. U look at everything around without any emotional connect,Nothing fascinates u.U can sit back,relax and enjoy the game as if there are two teams playing and u dont care who wins. This seems kind of depressing but this is a state of Zero, and i believe ppl try hard to attain this! and the best part it , before it gets monotonous, it passes away without any notice! Enjoy! :)
ReplyDeleteAsk, and you shall be given plenty. :)
ReplyDeleteI've been there, much recently, and then I've taken many flashback comparing myself with what I used to be. Surprisingly, the image of yesteryears always looks better, probably because we forget the bad things.
I'm digressing, back to the point.
If this is no fiction, then I'll give you an answer, and the answer is 'You'. It's nothing motivational, I am just asking you to be a little overconfident, that is all.
And I guess I heard you're Tronix Engineer? Well then, take it for granted, We, can do anything, ANYTHING.
Welcome aboard, it is going to be one helluva ride girl. Best of luck, and don't tie your seat belts. :D
Cheer Up!
Blasphemous Aesthete
I would rather sit silently at the sea and let the waves hit me. I will embrace this moment too..
ReplyDeleteDO WAT UR HEART WANT.DON'T AVOID UR BEAtings.
ReplyDeleteYou ask me "What happened?"
ReplyDeleteAnd I reply " L.I.F.E dear...............'LIFE' happened"
Ehh??
Yeah!!
Great....!
I have wondered so many times...but accepeted as a fact by now....that whenever two people sit together with a purpose of talking to each other...they always find it hard to find a topic to start d conversation...but when they give up the effort...after sometime they are found engrossed in a conversation, and they don't seem to have had enough of it when the time runs out.
ReplyDeletePoint.....don't try to have a conversation wid life.... Life will come to u of her own accord.
Enjoy this phase...rest your brains...enjoy not thinking....let your mind and emotions go into hibernation for some time. This will also pass before u know it and you will b aching for moments when you could care less....can be not on your toes emotionally
Look at the mirror and force a smile;in no time u will get reasons to smole
I guess this happens with every human being. Chill yaar. Most important thing for staying alive is perseverance. Best wishes.
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