My Little World

I wish to hear a love story...

2011-12-16T11:01:00.000-08:00

I wish to hear a love story. Real. Simple. Pure. A love story which did not just happened out of mere need or want or even passion but was delicately destined in the womb of the universe. A story which is more beautiful than God’s finest creations-rains, stars, butterflies, roses and rainbows. A story which is its own exemplary, into this earth but just out of this world! A story which does not tells about love at first sight. Instead portrays how it lasted till the last breath. A story where there is no separation or dying together but undying togetherness and a longing to live more (obviously until God’s own will). A real story which is dreamier than all the alluring dreams there could ever be. I wish to hear such a love story where two hearts are glued with utmost honesty and mutual respect. A story whose essence can ne’er be captured by camera or woven into words. A story where there’s no first, second or last but one, just one –a ‘one man woman’ and a ‘one woman man’ ideally made for each other. A story where love reflects care and care reflects love. A story where the relationship is above any earthly thought or material desires. A story where pain of one trickles down through the eyes of other, bliss of one doubly shimmers on the lips of other. A story where life itself is a romantic song and living is dancing to the tunes of it. I wish to hear a love story where charm at 59 is more imposing than that at 21. A story where there is a silent promise of being always there and an implicit commitment for other’s well-being. A story where the two laugh together, play together, dance together, sing together, dream together, work together, eat together, pray together………live together ………in resonance. A story which talks of love between two very beautiful people(beautiful you know?) swinging in the sea of love adorned with islands of trust, innocence, wisdom, compassion, understanding and everything angelic you can think of. I wish to hear such a story where even knowing the two lovers can bring you close to your own love. A story which can rekindle your faith in humanity. A story which can wet your eyes and distill your heart. A story which can strike few chords of your inside violin. A story where two splendid souls make a perfect couple and you fall in love with the duo. A story which is not a matter of few minutes or hours or even years but starts from forever and lasts till eternity. A story which every guy or girl would wish to be his or hers. A story where the benevolence of two is not only limited to them but to everyone around. Yes a story about two good people in the best of intimacies.

In the current bad-new-times I wish to hear such a love story……….I really wish……………!

Few illustrations....on living!

2011-11-22T04:53:00.000-08:00

- Rohan has always inherited his elder brother’s books, clothes and even toys. Seldom is it that he gets a new one owing to financial crisis in the family. But ne’er has he lodged a complaint. In fact he welcomes every ‘change’ with a broadened smile and (seemingly) enthused attitude.

- Yesterday was Mr. and Mrs. Mathur’s 25^th wedding anniversary. To no doubts there wasn’t any celebration except that the couple went to a temple and Aarti prepared ‘Matar-Paneer’ for dinner. It’s their eldest (of the three) daughter’s marriage in a month. Lots of work pending. Mr. Mathur’s eyes gleam with an echoing contentment as he espies the white, shiny, newly purchased i20 in his verandah (the only four-wheeler). Yes, the one he is gifting to his daughter. He (with his family) had let go umpteenth small little pleasures, everybody knows, for the big day.

- Radhika started tailoring in her house a year ago. Now she gets enough orders that can suitably finance food for her family, books for her two children, clothes twice a year and may be a little more sometimes. Her husband was a security guard in some agency. But after a rigorous accident he couldn’t stand on both legs and was obviously thrown out of the job. Though he tried various other options but nothing really worked. Frustrated, he cursed his ~~disability~~ destiny. It was then that Radhika took the responsibility. And she is doing pretty well today. Shyam,................. her husband, does the household chores. Though Radhika insisted she’ll manage but he never allows her except to do the dishes. Laxmi helps her father in the kitchen when she is done with her homework and daily studies. Shyam also does all the outside work. He often goes to the market to get grocery and stuff….stationary and toffees for the kids and not to forget…………colorful threads ………… and beautiful bindis ………………..for his wife.

- Simran has just typed her resignation letter. Her husband works in a reputed MNC in Bangalore and has a handsome package. Simran also worked in a software company in Pune. Nah, not for riches but she was ambitious like many others and wanted to make it big. Recently she has been blessed with twins. There’s no one in the relations except her father-in-law. ‘Family comes first’, she understands. ‘May be some other time’.

- Aayesha had to settle for a mediocre college, though she knows she deserved better; Paras couldn’t get into his dream company; Reehan lost in the battle of love…..but today ……………………they all have "moved on" in life! ………….”It just ain't possible to explain some things. It's interesting to wonder on them and do some speculation, but the main thing is you have to accept it--take it for what it is, and get on with your growing.”(Jim Dodge)

. . .

Life is less about Stars,Butterflies and Rainbows …………..and more about Compromises, Adjustments........ and Acceptance!

PS:Illustrations are all real.However names are randomly chosen.Please overlook.

A November night

2011-11-17T12:25:00.000-08:00

It was a quiescent November night. Cold and murky. I was standing by my window in my most comfortable attires. The not-so-notorious clouds had bedimmed the gems of the sky .Not even a single star could be spotted in the ambit of my pertinent vision. The milieu was all motionless, dormant. ’Twas as if nature too was slipping slowly under the masquerade of darkness akin to its people who were already in slumber land. There was no gushing of winds, no chirping of birds, no rustling of leaves, no twinkling of stars, no noise off-lying, no, absolutely nothing! Despite there was a unique harmony in the atmosphere, an unusual luster in the sky and a magical symphony in the silence.

The street lamps were lit in the wake of travelers if any .But, in vain. The roads were all deserted. However the warmth of their yellow lightning was quite soothing to their sole spectator. The only movement was of my eyeballs scanning the whole surrounding. And the only clamor was of the transaction of oxygen and carbon dioxide my lungs were monitoring. Surprisingly my mind as well as heart was dried of thoughts. No dreams. No planning. No to-do-lists. There were no regrets from the day before and no expectations from the day after. There was no yearning to fly high and touch the sky. But …………..a natural, involuntary wish to just walk……..walk endlessly barefoot on the road ………….and to feel and see and stare and listen….anything….perchance everything.

Sigh!

My Dream Job(s)

2011-11-10T06:23:00.000-08:00

It all began when I was in I-D and had to write an essay on 'My Class Teacher '. Surprisingly,for the first time I got a full star on it.Since then‘Teacher-Teacher’ (and not 'Ghar-Ghar') was my favorite game and I earnestly wanted to be one. I was hell excited to write ’very poor’ in the copy of my students ,to scold them and make them stand on their bench and to take them for picnic in ‘Hathi Park’(revenge you know,revenge :P). The other reason was that I’ll get to wear my mom’s high heels, beautiful sarees and can even use her makeup kit. *wink*

But then unfortunately, in a year or two(class III or IV) my love for cakes and pastries and chocolates out weighted my earlier zest. It was when my mom denied me a pack of chocolates saying ‘Daant kharab ho jaayenge” and on the spot I decided to own a Bakery shop one day.I often pictured myself supping blackforests and temptations all day long. (Slurp! Slurp!) When I told about my 'dream project' to my uncle he explained (after LOL-ing) how I’ll be at loss and that one day I’ll run out of money to buy more stuff for my shop. The clever me had an intelligent solution to the big problem-“Papa is always there, no?”But bade log ........ bade log. He put forth “Why not do something else, earn enough money and buy yourself lavishly all what you desire?” Well, how in the world could you win an argument with a stubborn child?(I mean you don't need to study more for being a shopkeeper plus you'll get to eat so many mouth-watering things whenever desired plus you can have TV in your shop to watch Pogo all time plus you can have holidays anytime every-time and blah blah blah).Poor Uncle Scrooge!

All thanks to DD-1 for diverting my mind. During those days (class IV or V) it featured one serial called ‘Aarohan’ which had Pallavi Joshi as a Navy cadet. I followed it strictly. Her ‘Washing powder Nirma’ washed ultra white uniform, smart looks, never-give-up attitude and stern patriotism intrigued me to be like her. The blue waters and the mighty ships were no less captivating. Opposite to Pallavi was a handsome hunk who was an air force pilot. He was so damn cute.His eyes, OMG what brilliance they had.Ummn…but soon the series ended. Studies began. My childhood fascination was thrown into a deep slumber. Slowly and steadily I forgot him, I mean Pallavi joshi…ehh…I mean ‘navy-mania’. The only thing I remembered then was that chemical formula of water is H2O.Whatever!

The intelligent me soon realized that I had to earn enough money(something like 30 thousand 40 crores 25 arabs 19 thousand 2 hundred 63 billions and 55 rupees :P) to meet all basic necessities of life- ~~roti,kapda aur makan~~ internet, shopping and bank balance. Nonetheless the frequency and range of my ‘Dream jobs’ was apparently quite high. It varied from tourist guide to bank manager, from pilot to interior designer and from astronaut to astrologer. It kept changing and changing until I landed on the highly overrated ‘High school’ landmark. At this stage I don’t know from when, where and how I came to know that I have to be an ~~Engineer~~ IITian and should struggle hard for the same in 10+2. But,in vain.(No,no regrets today!!)

As to this date, I’m on the verge of being graduated as a “Bachelor of Technology’( a non-IITian to be more specific),that too placed in a business firm. :D

It’s like,
‘Many’ roads diverged in a wood
I took the one ‘most’ travelled by
& Still thinking to make the ‘difference’!!.....:)

Did I told ya that my un-dear and dear ones always had a feeling that most likely I would be a doctor. I wish they knew that it takes me around half-an-hour to intake one 250mg tablet that too with a bottle of water and a packet of chips! Heha!!

So this was the whole twined transition.God bless my unstable mind.Howbeit,a happy heart is all that matters in the end,no?

~keep smiling

I want you to cry tonight

2011-05-17T09:01:00.000-07:00

Today I won't droop your shoulders

with the burden of indefinite hope

Neither would I crumple your eyes

to another aura of sleepless dreams.

I won't blabber philosophies today

'It's Destiny','Move on','Such is Life' and so on

Nor will I sink in the sea of emotions

to wet you in the showers of sympathy.

Instead I want you to cry tonight,

Yes do that,it's a begging plea

reel of your pain,let tears tumble down your cheeks

which might be aching owing to fake smiles
Don't make your wounds rot

Don't pretend as if everything's okay when it's not,It hurts

Don't act wise,I cognize you are broken inside !

Let your mind accede to the failure

and lament aloud,very loud

until it outbursts your agony.

Don't be hesitant of the otherwise ruthless world

Nobody will see your break down,I promise.

I'll shut mine eyes too and turn my back,if you desire !

But please cry,cry for once

and let your heart be dried of sorrows

your soul redeem of yesterdays residues !

For O dearest, I empathize

with the irreplaceable loss incurred on you

And so I want you not to just escape it

under the refuge of hope,dream,destiny or sympathy

but instead triumph over it

on the chariot of your own WILL

with the sword of your infinite virtues !

I'm waiting to see you soar high,again

Let You be dawned forever!

I Await You!

2011-05-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

Like a coarse tiny vapor

arrested amidst the black clouds

fighting tough to reach out

waiting to be sculptured

into a beautiful white pearl!

Like an unborn dream

in the womb of the heavens

traversing through crests and troughs

seeking for a worthier doer!

Like the darkest hour before dawn

waiting to bathe in the orange light

to exempt all grief amalgamated over night

and zealous to start anew!

Like an eternal prayer of all souls

of hope and happiness

and of love and madness

waiting to be ascertained by the one above!

Like the other half of crescent moon

counterpoised by the beholder

owing to the radiance of it's better half

waiting to aglow to it's full glory!

I Await You!

Just the way you are...

2011-05-04T11:15:00.000-07:00

Do I love you because of the clothes you wear?
Nah! I could see through your soul~beautifully draped in rainbows!!

Do I love you because of the way you talk?
Nah! I love the symphony in your silence,the song in your smile!!

Do I love you because of the way you care for people?
Nah! It's because of the way you don't care for yourself!!(Not fair :( )

Do I love you because of the way you are wise and intelligent?
Nopes! It's because of the way you are innocent,and cute and stupid ,all in a blink of my eye!!

Do I love you because of the way you speak?
Nah! It's because of the eloquence in your eyes!!

Are you in my life because you are beautiful?
No! It's because life seems beautiful when you are around!!

Do I love you because of the dreams you weave?
Nah! It's because of the reality you adore!!

Do I love you because of the way you love me?
Nah! It's because of the way you make me love myself, even more !!

Do I love you because you exactly match the one I always desired of in my own world of fantasy?
Oh No! you are much much more than what I could ever imagine,than what I could ever ask HIM,more alluring than the one I ever dreamt of!!

Do I love you because of the way YOU are?
YES! just the way YOU are,simply the way YOU are.Your perfections,imperfections,your virtues,your vice,your truths,your lies, I love all,all,all of them.

I CELEBRATE YOU & I LOVE US !!

PS:Random Scribbling!

I Dive Deep, into the Sea of Emotions...

2011-04-26T05:51:00.000-07:00

I Dive Deep

into the Dark Sea of Emotions...

To Bring forth

the Pearls of Life

lying scattered everywhere!

To Travel along

the Islands of Joy

Spreading Smiles in Spares!

So that I could

Pour My Love

in the Glass of The Universe

until it Fills and Spills

and Falls back onto Me!

I Dive Deep

into the Sea of Emotions...

not because I'm Weak

but because I LIVE!

Little Girl

2011-04-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

A Little Girl I know
Naive, just four
Her Innocence’s ever charming
Her Sweetness names her a darling.
She has a crystal clear soul
O! She’s purer than the pure!

She dances out in the rain
Her tiny feet twirl and part
She sings aloud in her garden
To the tunes of her heart
Without much ado
To the eyes discerning her.

Life is fair to her
As are grandma’s fairy tales
The world is good at large
As her doll house entails.
She’s papa’s boy
She’s mama’s girl
Her aura brimming with love
Unaware of the tide, yet to unfurl.

For she couldn’t fathom
The endless worries
her mother’s eyes emanate
Neither the protective ways
her father resonates
All she wants is
To grow up, to grow big, very big
Like her Mama
So that she could fit in
In her high heeled shoes
(very pretty they are, to her).

Innocence is so much vulnerable,no?

My Little World turns 'One' today :D

2011-04-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

Hello Everybody,

Today My Little World turned 'One'.I'm so so happy about it.Yes,exactly 365 days ago,on this very day I first stepped into blogosphere and my first post was nothing but a little bit of me.At that time I didn't knew what all I'll write about or whether I'll be able to continue or not .But see here I'm with some 40+ posts,50 followers,few very good blogger friends and last but certainly not the least- words of praise and encouragement which are undoubtedly my dearest possessions.Thank you all who read me.Thanks a zillion!!

I won't say much except that all my writes here are breathings from my heart.Good or bad,right or wrong they are a part of me,THE TRUE ME.One thing more that Dreams,Hope,Happiness,Love-they never die.I just try my best to keep them alive in 'My Little World'.

Thank you once again to all the awesome bloggers who read me.Thank you to my friends for their pings,likes,comments related to my blog.A big big THANK YOU!!!

I just wish I could write more and more and more.

~Smileys,Love and Prayers for you all

Few Little but Favorite Moments /Things

2011-04-13T08:08:00.000-07:00

Having read many Favorite-things-list,here comes mine (in no specific order)

Papa making tea for me and mamma :D (though it's once in a blue moon but still you love it)
Mamma chumpy-ing oil on hair :)
Pillow fighting with siblings/friends :P
Getting wet in rains and then having pyaaz ke pakode with adrak ki chai :)
A quiet beachside walk in the night with the wind blowing softly
Giving a cute smile to a kid or a baby stranger :D
Tripling on Scooty/Bike
Driving at more than 60km/h on Highway
A hand made Greeting Card :)
A hand written letter :)
A simple "Good Morning/Good Night" message without any forwarded text
Finding money in your pockets after the clothes are thoroughly washed away
Crayons
Gel pens
Parle-G (yeah,my favorite :D)
Waking up at 2:00 in the night and finding something to eat
Writing your name on a fogged up mirror/car window or on sand
Bonfire in winters
Laughing so hard that you start to cry
A call from a distant dear friend
Looking at Old Photo albums/Reading Slambook
Old faded but favorite jeans
Vacants in Time-Table or a surprise official Off :D (like the one we had today :) or bunking the class(es) and outing with friends
Dairy Milk on a gloomy day
Window Shopping
Watching sunset with a cup of strong coffee,and thinking absolutely nothing!
Roadside food (esp chaat and golpappe :D)
Reading a romantic novel in lamp light with few soft tracks in background
Your favorite song playing in radio
When all of a sudden you come to know that some so and so was doing your "Peeth peeche taareef" :P
Gifts,both getting and giving :)
A really soft pillow
Waking up and realizing you still have a few minutes left till the alarm sounds
Mamma ya Papa ke haath se khana khana when you slept early or you are ill and you are 19 :D
Yelling yourself hoarse when India's winning and doing totkas when it's not :P
Calling a friend's name aloud when her/his crush is passing by :P
A total stupid,baseless,irrelevant conversation with some cool,idiot people you call 'Friends' :P
The 'Traveling' part of a trip
A sincere apology and an unexpected Thank you note
The last five minutes of a ridiculously boring lecture and then immediately rushing to the water cooler
Eating in class,when the teaching is on :P
Taking a photo at exactly the right moment
Chocolate Cake
Smell of earth after downpour
Sleeping under the stars
Laughing at something silly that you did
An honest Compliment/Appreciation by someone who really matters
Childhood memories
A beautiful dream in the morning hours,which you manage to remember
Talking about cartoon/comics that you read as kids with someone who read them too(Champak,Tinkle,Chacha Chaudhary,Flintstones,Teletubbies,Tom and Jerry. Anyone?)
That 15 minutes nap in Exam time
Holding hands without thinking :)
Rains,Snowfall
A Hug,when you need it most
School teachers who still remember you
Getting someone a present which they long desired and watching the look on their face as they open it
Tears of joy
Revived and nicely pressed cotton clothes
The sound of flowing water
Birthday Wishes
Turning off all the lights,looking into the starry sky and thinking life's good :)
Power cuts and then gathering on terrace/ground-playing,talking etc etc
Bookmarks,Reminders
Blessings
That feel good factor when you see someone's smiling and you know You are the reason behind it :)

PS:

~Smiles :)

To Sparrow, with Love

2011-04-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

I remember the times O Sparrow
When I was young and you were little
Days began with your rhythmic chirrups
And evenings spoke of my innocent twiddles.

Your nest was an oft visited place
During playtime in sunny weather
I was amazed at the way you sewed it all
Twigs and yarns and feathers.

My garden was more beckoning
When you sang there with your troop
Daffodils and Butterflies danced
And I fostered you with drupes.

I daily gazed at the eternal sky
And watched you fly high ,in blue extremes
Your vigor,your freedom and your abiding bustle
Intrigued me to live my Dreams.

I remember the times O Sparrow
When a storm struck us both
You coped up the next day ,I heard your song
It rejuvenated, my heart and hope.

You often came and sat by my verandah
And were ne’er afraid of me
You made my ambience cheerful
And I just loved your very being!

Ah! But O little birdie, where have you
disappeared now?Long time,no see!
I just miss your soulful songs
and I JUST MISS THEE!

PS: The House Sparrow is now a disappearing species.To raise an awareness among people,World Sparrow Day is observed every year on March 20th(It started in 2010only).The theme for this year is :"Chirp for the Sparrow,tweet for the Sparrow".

The Eloquent Silence

2011-03-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

Here as I stand on the kerb of my balcony,
Forlorned, wretched ,as if a woe betide.
Venturing to unravel the bizarre cacophony,
Of the reapers and the sailors ,of the tits and the tides.

The pluvial pearls pattering the floor,
Songbirds crooning hitherto to azure.
And the quavering foliage whispering in my ears,
Crescending the tumult, the windy veers.

Townies trundling , Oh! the tittle-tattle meet,
Kids making merry, boys strumming down the streets.
Hawkers howling at the vortex of the voice,
Adding to the bongo, the banger device.

Even the artefacts ,the clock ,ticking at pace,
The wind chimes jingling ,perhaps struggling in the race.
Then the phone bell ranged ,oaf, another cry,
And there in the kitchen ,the vent blew high.

Ah! all judders ..hammering my tympanum,
Be it whispers, slurps,ditty or hum.
For everything is sonorous ,and everyone has to aver,
Save two in the milieu ,the quietus ever.......

Quietus ever , I couldn’t make out why?
All seasons ,all occasions , tacit and shy.
Perhaps abstaining ,from escalating the symphony,
Or are the sole listeners , of all enigma, all euphony.

But silence is also the veneer of noise,
Eventually thwarted ,revealed in disguise.
Still they are mute, subdued ,and might remain to be,
The Saviour the Mighty ,and the Solitary Me………..

PS:This is one of my older writes.Just wanted to post it here!

Few Random Clicks

2011-03-23T04:27:00.000-07:00

“Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but I'll work it out."(Dave Matthew)

“When I admire the wonder of a sunset or the beauty of the moon, my soul expands in worship of the Creator."(M.K.Gandhi)

Super Moon Dated March 19,2011

PS:All pics are taken by your's truly ME :).They are original,unedited.Looking forward to some good photography.

~Smiles,love and prayers

Late at night,Life revived

2011-03-17T08:48:00.000-07:00

LOST,Late at night
Through the window in the right
I espy the umpteenth aura
Of shimmering species
Smouldering within
Yet sedating enough
Bedecking the purple sky!
ORION,the HUNTER
Delves in my SOLITUDE!

On spur of the moment
A silky zephyr
Gushes across my being
Emancipating all thoughts
Of hope and happiness
Of fear and sadness
And of dreams and madness
Taking all my turbulence away!

The vastness of the blue meadows outside
Intrigue me to explore the vastness within
I close my eyes a little for a while
And all I could feel
Is a SOUL dyed BLUE
So seemingly to the azure above
Dark.Empty.Obscure.
and then out of the blue
“Make it luminous”,
I heard HIS voice
“Beautify the world inside
And thus the beholder outside !
WINS and FAILURES are like
Blue-black clouds
Appearing,Disappearing
Ever-changing
Kindle your soul
With eternal brilliance of STARS
of LOVE and of VALUES
And thine shall shine forever !"

I breathed out heavily
HE is right conceivably!
I ogled again
At the blue-gray sky
tip turned my eyes a bit
And the ORION now appeared
More like a BUTTERFLY !
Strange!
I embraced it with a welcoming smile
And the first thought
That immediately occupied my mind
“The world isn’t that bad girl
Neither is life !
just shape-shift your perspective a bit ."

On this Woman’s day for all days to come

2011-03-08T10:35:00.000-08:00

Hello All,

Today on this Woman's Day I'm not here to boast of my genre something like "Do you know why God Created Man 1st and then Woman? Cause you need a rough Draft before creating a master piece." This is one of the messages I got today.Total crap,ain't it? I won't be bragging here about my "Greatness" like “I’m a cute daughter,I’m a sweet sister,I’m a lovely lover, I’m to-be-a-darling wife ,I’m to-be-an-adorable mother so on and on and on”.Neither would I speak of “the heavenly fire that kindles my heart and soul”,that I’m a source of immense strength, that I could move mountains,that I could touch the sky,that I’m ever smiling,ever tempting,ever kind,ever patient, ,uncomplaining, compromising dot dot dot.

Instead,today I earnestly wish for something.It’s not that I’m against the aforesaid ideas(Infact I would love to be so) but why always such obligations?Why so many expectations?Why idealizations?Why stereotypifications?Why can’t I just celebrate Myself without considering the roles I play in other people’s life?I also have the same set of ideas,ambitions and emotions as the other ‘humans’ (read men)have.So if they can why can’t I live my dreams,why can’t I make mistakes,why can’t I be selfish,and why can’t I complain?Why?I also have got just one life,no?

I’m always of the belief that men and women are different and equal.Two sides of the same coin,we complete each other.God created us that way.We should appreciate this difference.But it’s really sad that we are always verbally attacking each other to project that one is superior to other.Grow up people!!It’s high time.

Well,here’s my wishlist on this Woman’s day for all days to come:

I don’t want to be compared to anyone or against any benchmark.
I don’t want to be judged based on some pseudo- standards and preconceived ideas.
I just want to live my life with peace and independence, doing small things that make me happy and the world a better place. I want freedom to choose and decide for myself.
In my small way I want to be a part of this world and make small little contributions.
I don’t want to be discriminated against or be subject to bias.
I don’t want reservations or special privileges but I don’t want to be deprived of my basic rights either.
I have a right to say no.I have a right to be heard.

I want that I could walk/drive on the street without having someone wink/ whistle/ hoot/ hum/ stare.
I want that I could cycle down a long quiet road, whistling in the rain, enjoying the drops on my bare arms and legs, without worrying that it’s getting dark.
I want that I could travel loads and loads with mine girl-friends,without being ‘unsafe’
I want that at some 1:45 AM in the night I could go to the terrace and play my guitar,whenever desired.
I want that I could say what I want, when I want, without people going ‘haaawwww!’
I want that I could wear what I want without aunties looking at me like I’m a bad indecent girl or that I have no morals or whatever.
I want to be accepted as I am…I want to celebrate the idea that I am a Woman.

Nothing more,Nothing less!!

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PS:This is not exclusively my writeup.I read this wishlist here and here,and hence the post.

I'm an Ordinary Man!

2011-03-05T19:30:00.000-08:00

Plain
Simple
Common
Mediocre
Unsophisticated
I'm an Ordinary man!

With small fortune
and equally small ability
I take Life
as it comes
making joyous compromises
each day
every moment
I'm an Ordinary man!

I'm not perfect
Neither do I have an extra-ordinary talent
I'm no stylish,no special
my heart doesn't desire much.
I have my warts and weaknesses
in full acceptance
Slow and stupid
many a times
I'm an Ordinary man!

My world is narrowly confined
to the immediate ambience
where I often cultivate
broad-mindedness.
I have a small family
and few friends
I love them a lot
they love me too
I'm an Ordinary man!

I'm unnoticeable in the crowd
unobserved I travel down the paths
I'm never a 'centre of attraction'
I'm seldom highlighted
or paid attention
I'm an Ordinary man!

I do not always know
which way to go
my dreams are little
my prayers big
I take second chances
but not too many 'risks'
I'm an Ordinary man!

I say no to tyranny
to power
to things unethical
of which
I'm the ultimate sufferer
Very calmly I intake
all injustice
without any resistance
'coz I'm an Ordinary man!

The mere absence of sadness
makes me happy
I'm astouded
by natural beauty
I can be innocent
and simultaneously wise
I'm living a very ordinary life
I'm an Ordinary man!

I do not have a vision
Or a purpose dignified
I live life on the daily basis
Trying to push things in hand
A little up
A little higher
every moment
so as to 'not lose'
Seeking happiness
in small little pleasures
trying best
not to be unkind
I’m an ordinary man!

Unknown,Unspoken
Unlamented I'll die one day
My name will not be etched
anywhere in space and time
'cept in the hearts of few akin
I’m an ordinary man!

But I'm not alone you see
there are many,untold like me
living a tiny
yet satisfying life
Plain
Simple
Common
Mediocre
Unsophisticated
Happy
Contented
ORDINARY!

My Way of Life

2011-03-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

Think Big

Do Good

Be Nice

and Relish every small Pleasure in Life.

PARI

2011-02-06T09:53:00.000-08:00

"Why are you doing this when you can have your own?",Mom asked furiously,almost in tears.

"Atleast think about the society.They will raise so many questions to you and your parents.They'll doubt your...",an acquaintance was trying hard to convince.

"You people are hurting your parents.They had so many aspirations from you.Don't you have any obligations towards them?", another fellow added.

"Apna khoon apna hi hota hai.No one else can take his place.Do whatever you want!",Papa asserted loudly and left the room.

But the couple was adamant to their decision.Nothing in the world could bent them.

They said "Sorry Ma,Sorry Paa.But we are really not bothered what others would think of us.We are not doing anything wrong.And If you want we'll have our own too.But this has to be done.Today and Now.We have promised her."
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They took the keys and hurried to the place.

"Hello sister!"

"Hello Sir.Hello Ma'am.All formalities have been done.You just have to sign here.",the matron said.

"Yeah.we'll just do."

"Congratulations to both of you.God bless you people."

"Thank you sister!"

They both looked at each other.Happiness,love,contentment and proud tinged vividly in their eyes.They distributed sweets to everyone out there.

He kissed her on her forehead for the very first time and hugged her tight.(Ah!Truly Divine. An awesome feeling).

The three of them then headed towards the temple on the opposite side of the road, to seek blessings of the Almighty.

The papers on the dashboard of the car were gleaming brightly on that full moon night.They read,

"St. Anthony Girls Orphanage
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Child's Name:PARI
Age:2 yrs ,6 months
Sex:Female

Adopted by:
Mrs and Mr.............
on 6'Feb'2011"

And on the backseat were kept a teddy-bear,a doll in pink,a toy train,a remote control car,a big box of chocolates and toffees,small little pair of shoes,few packets from 'Kids Wear' shop etc etc.
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Once in school ,a friend asked "What does it mean to be adopted?"

"It means",said Pari "that you grew in your mommy's heart instead of her tummy :)"

Love unconfessed............

2010-12-09T09:56:00.000-08:00

Dearest You,

The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I ..........

II.
Though I could ne'er see
laughter ripples on your face
or hug you tight
when you really need one.
Though I could ne'er
wipe off tears
rolling down your cheeks
or hold them in my palm
as precious pearls.
Though I could ne'er
walk with you at a starlit night,
holding hands,silently
taking all your fears away.
Though I could ne'er arrange
surprises on your birthdays
or celebrate life
unoccasionally.
Though I could ne'er
lend you my ears
or offer my shoulders
in moments of pain.
Though I could ne'er give you
'a gift' which you like
just to see a smile
on your tired face.
Though I could ne'er hold
tears of joy
for your small little
accomplishments.

Though I could ne'er tell you

that ' I LIKE YOU'

coz I understand you deserve much better

why to bother you,unnecessarily .

Still O Sweetest heart
I care for you

from a distance though!!!

for
The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I ..........

III.

I do not exactly remember
when did it all began
you became a priority
in my daily prayers.
To every cheerful face
I come across
'Smiling with a spark'
I feel you!
Whenever I espy
a shooting star
I just wish
for your wish come true.
My dreams often
bless your dreams
with my soul sincerely yearning
for your happiness and esteem.
Whenvever I turn the pages of newspaper
to read horoscope of the day
it's your's always
which I read first!
I do not know why
but when it comes to judging people
guys particularly,I compare them to thee
and unsurprisingly none matches up!
That day also
I believed in your dreams
today also I assert
You'll be a great man one day!
Whenever I'm sad
and cry my heart out
I know you can never be there
Still,I only think of you!

I often convey my love

to butterflies and sparrows and winds

I hope they carry it to you

unknowingly though!

for
The YOUness in YOU

I Appreciate

I Admire

I Respect

and I love!

IV:
I won't measure my love-true love,deep love,mad love ,selfless love etc etc.It's unimportant.Let it be just LOVE for the sake of LOVE.I just wish for your happiness,that you live all your dreams.

I'll never confess it to you.Never.Few things are best when left unsaid.I comprehend you have a lot of aspirations from yourself ,from life where I somehow do not fit in. You truly deserve an angel who'll love you heart and soul and will get your love in return.And for this I have no regrets, no grievances towards God,towards you,towards me or any other.It's destiny,I apprehend.As I said your happiness is of paramount importance to me . May you get the best in life!

Another important thing here is that I LOVED.Yes surprisingly ,I loved someone and I'm happy about it and the best thing is that I Loved YOU.(Hey would you believe that ever since I have known you I did not have had even a crush on anybody else?Forget about attraction ,lol :P.It's been some six years.Long time,no?).Yeah it's like that.

My love is not the greatest of all.It might not grow with time for togetherness is essential for that.But my love for you will remain as it is.You'll always be in my thoughts and prayers,and that's a promise.Love(for me) was tough.Unloving is tougher,infact unachievable.

The fact is that I do not deserve YOU.

The truth is that I'll always love you,from a distance though!!

Take care.

Sigh!

Could ne'er be Yours

PS:This is a work of pure imagination. :)

Most prized possessions ...

2010-11-11T05:39:00.000-08:00

Unremembered acts of Kindness

Unsaid Words and Unshed Tears,

and an Unborn Dream

are few of my most prized possessions (till date)!!

To all the Sweet Souls...

2010-11-04T20:15:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

How beautiful a day can be when kindness touches it,isn't it?Well,here's my tribute to all the kind ,beautiful and sweet souls for YOUR benign presence on earth which makes this planet a place to live in ,inspite of all the other odds.

YOU bring smile to forlorn faces,
YOU lend your ears when somebody really needs one,
YOU inspire people to success ,
YOU keep hope alive in humanity,
YOU care for everyone around,
and offer your helping hands,
YOU encourage people with your promising words
YOU spread love and happiness in the aura you happen to be
and YOUR ever so beautiful thoughts radiate positivism in space..........

In all ,YOU touch lives in your own special way ,enriching them each day passing by. The light of the Lord that burns within YOU, kindles the dying flame of despondent souls.

O YOU ,I THANK THEE !

WE are truly blessed to have YOU.

Be the way YOU are,always, for the world really needs YOU!

Stay Happy,Stay blessed!

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PS:We always criticize the wrong but seldom do we praise the right ones.This was a small attempt from my side to thank all the sweet souls round the earth for their goodness including you.

PS:Since this post is all about YOU, write something about YOURSELF instead of commenting on how I have written this post,and if not,a simple smiley would do!

True happiness...

2010-10-30T05:46:00.000-07:00

True happiness comes when you create something
and you are honestly appreciated for it!

Behind.....

2010-10-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

Behind the misty silence
Is a soul that cries so hard
Behind all those hope and wisdom
Is a fearful, brittle heart.

Behind all those laughter ripples
Is a pain that is kept hidden
Behind the walls of reasons
Are answers, unquestioned.

Behind the ties of space and time
Is a void that does not seem
Behind every journey that begins anew
Is a boulevard of broken dreams…..

The God I believe in!!

2010-10-03T22:15:00.000-07:00

I'm not particular about going to temples,and giving hefty charity to the trust.(Instead I would feed the poor myself.)

I'm really not bothered whether to offer flowers first or do 'tilak' of the idols in my own temple at home.

I do not believe in reading long texts before almighty (which are mostly in sanskrit ) whose meaning I don't know.

I could not always appreciate the rites and rituals ,for example killing (an animal or person) in order to propitiate a deity.

I do not believe in fasting in the name of God.(I won't mind being hungry by choice.)
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I am a Hindu on paper.But if you ask my original self my religion is none other than Humanity.

I'm as keen to visit Ajmer Sharif,Golden temple and St. Joseph Cathedral as I wanna go to Shirdi Sai dham or on Baba Amarnath yatra.For I love the charismatic,peaceful and tranquil atmosphere that prevails in all of these sites.

I love colours,and gujhiya and papad and I celebrate Holi.
I love crackers and candles and sweets and I celebrate Diwali.
I love cakes and gifts and Santa Clause and I celebrate Christmas.
I love the sight of moon and sewaiyyan (vermicilli) and I celebrate Eid.

In all,I love the God I believe in,I love HIS PEOPLE and I love MYSELF and thus I CELEBRATE LIFE which HE has gifted me.
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The God I believe in is personification of LOVE.

I talk to my GOD more than I actually pray.We have a very informal (& friendly) kinda relationship.HE says,I listen,I say,HE listens.

I believe I'm in HIS heart and HE is in mine.

HE never lets my HOPE extinguished and helps me go through good and bad times equally well.

HE makes me understand that there are people who are more unfortunate than me and so I should not cry (so- long)over pity things.

Till now HE has always given me what I deserve and may be a little more.

And in return HE asks me or expects me nothing.Nothing means Nothing!

It's just that I want HIM to inculcate a never-ending GOODWILL in me and and and to bless the unfortunate!

This is the GOD I believe in.....and you know.....I LOVE HIM!!

PS: Well, this is the God 'I' believe in.These are strictly my views,which I don't enforce on YOU.Neither I discard the God 'YOU' believe in.Still I feel if you share a little similar views about your God,may be OUR GOD will be happy!

My sorrows are all mine alone...

2010-09-22T23:49:00.000-07:00

You share your happinesses with me,
I'll augment it manifold
You reel off your pain
I'll try to lessen the cold.

I'll also share my joys with you
If you do not at all mind,
but my sorrows are all mine alone
'un-said' and perhaps 'un-confined' !

She DIED….

2010-09-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

She cried
No one bothered
She screamed
No one heard.

She was bruised
No one cared
Her happinesses even
ebbed unshared.

She tried to explain
No one understood
Her eyes all swollen
No one ever looked.

She even wrote
Alas! no one read
Elusive emotions
Remained unsaid.

Then one day
out of the blue
When ‘grey’ became
‘blackish hue’
She DIED….
(Yes ,an early demise…
No,it wasn't a suicide )

She DIED
And Everybody
Sympathized
(‘ poor soul ’,
they hyped)

WHY?
Tell me
WHY?

My List

2010-09-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

There are so many things we wanna do in life but could not always. The academic pressures,shortage of time,deadlines of other 'important stuffs',elders restrictions,social constrictions,circumstances,responsibilities and at times our own fear,laziness or even our mood ,prohibit us to do so.But fortunately or unfortunately we all have just one 'LIFE' to live on.

.......................... And so I'm very much keen to execute "My List" before I take my last breaths on this planet.

Here it goes............

Do my masters

Get a good job

Travel as much as possible-both India and Abroad

Learn Swimming

Learn Skating

Donate blood

Save someone's life

Donate my eyes

Get one of my works published

Write a novel

Learn Guitar and Synthesizer

Work and run a charity organization

Go for Mountaineering,preferably Everest

Build a sandcastle

Learn to cook some good stuff ,esp cakes n cookies

Learn German and Spanish

Travel in a Ship

Inspire someone to success

Make a difference in someone's life

Go for a week long trip with friends

Fight for a genuine social cause

Own my own personal library

Read as many good books as possible

Learn Dancing(salsa or belly dancing)

Sing in public

Have a pair of rabbits

Own a latest camera

Do some good Photography

Paint on canvas

Own a Telescope

Go on an African Safari

Practice Driving Car(which I learnt once)

Do river rafting

Own a house of my dreams

Have my own garden with a big fountain

Go to the top of Eiffel Tower

Ride on a hot air balloon

Watch a cricket/football match in stadium

Live in another country for atleast an year

Go for a long long drive in an open-top car

Get married to guy of my dreams and have a happy family with him

Leave this world a bit better

PS: This is all I could think of now.The list is subjected to upgradation.
PS:I was a little occupied these days.But now I'll blog on a regular basis and will very soon visit you guys.

~love and prayers

Good/Bad

2010-08-21T23:26:00.000-07:00

There's no limit to being BAD,but there IS a limit to being GOOD.

Get Well Soon!

2010-08-07T08:27:00.000-07:00

We all need to be CURED,in one or the other way.

GET WELL SOON!!!

Happy Friendship Day

2010-08-01T10:36:00.000-07:00

Hello Blogosphere,

Mine sincere and heartfelt wishes for you all on this friendship day.Stay happy,stay blessed.Well, I believe a friend is "one of the nicest things you have and one of the best things you can be" .So,

Here's a small poem from my side exclusively for all mine blogger friends.

"Though we have never watched

laughter ripples

across each others face

or huddled close

in moments of pain

or wiped off

each others tears

or walked together

on an endless road

or blathered

for hours unknown

Still, you are my friend.

I hold a space for you

In this world

For

I honour the universe

That lives within you

For inspiring me always

I'm grateful to you.

I count the blessings

You bestow on me

I value the time

You devote for me.

I appreciate the words

you encourage me with.

I acknowledge the manner

you correct me,forthwith.

And above all
I love the way

you make me feel

your tender care

rejuvenates my zeal.

For all this

and much more

I sincerely

thank

thee.

Thank you for being there

Always!"

~Saumya :)

Once again,

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY

Love you all :)

Me in Wonderland

2010-07-29T08:20:00.000-07:00

What would life be without Daydreaming?

Eh!....Scary,isn't it?

Well ,here's 'Me in Wonderland',things I want to do or I daydream of.

I wanna run in a beach for miles and miles towards the evanescing sun. I wanna sit at the top of a tall tower late at night for some unknown hours and continuously eyeshot the aura of twinkling species. I wanna dance in a garden when it’s quietly raining to the beats of some endless music with no one looking around. I wanna walk for hours and hours ,on a cloudy day, in a an endless road surrounded by the red maple trees on both the sides and the wind blowing softly and a flute being played in the background (I would not mind , flowers falling on to me as I take my every step forth. :P) .I wanna travel round the whole world, whole world- and appreciate the exquisite creativity of not man less but of God more and capture all in my camera. I wanna climb the Everest atleast once. I wanna do river-rafting in Pacific Ocean round the earth. I wanna sit by the side of a beautiful river in an unknown country and play my guitar. I wanna drive a bike (yeah bike)on a National Highway at some 100km/hr (with no trucks and cars around) in the midnight. I wanna write a book someday(not a textbook for sure) ,hopefully an international-best-sellar(:P). I wanna rob a bakery shop once(:P)- cakes, pastries and chocolates are ever-so-tempting to me. I wanna shout my name aloud at the dead of the night and hear the echo back.
.............................................................................................................................And the list goes on.

I doubt if even one of these will come true. Yet ‘DREAMING’ alone is BEAUTIFUL. Life is not only facing the REALITY which is at times harsh and bitter but it is also FANTASIZING about the things that you dream of. Some colors exist in dreams that are not present in the waking spectrum. They add to our LIFE ,they make us SMILE, they make us INFINITE and somehow kindle us with HOPE and that MATTERS A LOT!

~love and prayers

LIGHT

2010-07-24T20:01:00.000-07:00

Today I could see more LIGHT embracing the earth.
Is it 'coz of my heart burning
or 'coz my soul's radiating ?

Grief

2010-07-22T00:13:00.000-07:00

I made you believe in 'YOU',

you thrashed my belief in 'ME',

I fought the world for 'YOU'

you end up hurting 'ME'.......

LOVE

2010-07-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

Love kindles just unexpectedly
and nurtures with no expectations.
It is quintessence of holiness
semblance of sacrifice
immortal ,unpretentious
it is 'beauty' epitomized.

They say we fall in love,O ne'er
we just suddenly begin to 'rise'.

'Tis far above the heavenly abode
far beneath the secrets of our soul
and wherever the two coincide
is the fount of love
perhaps origin of life.

And I wouldn't be wrong if I surmise,
'GOD' is nothing but LOVE personified.

PS:I posted this poem in my poem blog too.Just wanted to repost it here .

The Best Secret

2010-07-14T21:03:00.000-07:00

"You always know who in the world you are praying for,but you never know who in the world is PRAYING FOR YOU(secretly)."

Isn't it the BESTEST SECRET?So BEAUTIFUL and so PURE.

It really feels so good naa when all of a sudden you come to know that someone REMEMBERS you,someone CARES for you,someone GIVES you his/her TIME(the only precious thing) .And above all ,that, someone PRAYS for your well-being ,for your happiness,for your dreams-come-true ,selflessly and secretively ,may be in lieu of his/her own desires.I reckon this to be one of the best aspect's of life.The happiness bestowed thereby lingers and is preeminent.One seems to be overwhelmingly blessed when touched by such kindness.

Helping hands and praying lips-What else one craves for?

That 'someone' may be your friend,your sibling,your love,your neighbor,your servant ,the one you 'dislike' or the one whose existence you aren't aware of .It can be anyone anywhere.So friends,

keep this beautiful feeling in view,
someone is always thinking good of you. :)

(from an sms)

~love and prayers

It hurts!

2010-07-10T20:01:00.000-07:00

Me: (smilingly) It's okay.Never mind.
She: You sure naa?
Me: (a little more smilingly) Yeah,I'm all fine dear.You carry on.
She: I knew that.You are so good.Chal,see ya later!

"If only you could see a drop of tear, that fell from the left corner of my eye, just when you turned back and how quickly I wiped it off."

At times it hurts.It's just that we do not want to hurt back. But.......It hurts!

What's so much there in the 'Surname'?

2010-07-06T08:43:00.000-07:00

In every home a burning ghat
In every home a gallows
In every home are prison walls
Colliding against the walls
She falls ......................................

Sati System,Female Foeticide,Dowry Deaths,Honour Killing.Any guesses what's next in the 'honourable' series?The scenario today is Grandmothers killing grand daughters,brothers killing sisters,Mothers slaughtering daughters and Fathers smothering sons.Murder of the BLOOD,by the BLOOD ,for the BLOOD.Who said Man was born free.I'm amazed at this horrendous show of man's inhumanity to man.Truly awestruck.And the irony is that these barbarous and savages justify their 'deeds' under the aegis of 'FAMILY HONOUR'.

We all grow up with the weight of history on us. Our ancestors dwell in the attics of our brains.Probably that's the reason we look forward to Best lifestyles,Vision 2020,'Educated Society' but we cannot do away with CASTEISM and COMMUNALISM.It is not only limited to the lower strata but to the 'high-born' equally. I wonder what's so much there in the 'SURNAME' that differentiates between humans,that brings the devil inside out ,that causes a huge massacre of love ,of emotions,of feelings,of bonds and of relationships. Incidentally and interestingly, it is ironic to see participants in the debate over the caste census argue that ideally, caste should be done away with ‘except in matters of marriage’!Anything more stupid ?We all are against RESERVATIONS but we do not support Inter-cast Marriages.I have no other words, but I feel pity on the narrow-mindedness of the 'intelligent elites'.

Is it always the Caste factor or something else?Probably loving-against-the-will-of-parents.Whatever it is ,the 'mindsets' will have to change to match the pace of fast-moving -world.

Let our RELIGION be KINDNESS ,our CASTE be HUMANITY.

Rains,I'm loving it!

2010-07-04T09:18:00.000-07:00

It's Sunday and it's eventide.The road is wet,the sky is grey,garden more green and ambience more clean .Yep ,It rained an hour before.Quiet,cozy gentle rain. The balmy breeze blew across the body and exhilirated my soul .Had a walk on the terrace.Got drenched completely.It was refreshing as never before after the fiery heat.AWESOME! Adding to it, the smell of the earth.Truly Divine.

It's drizzling .The rhythm of the dripping pearls is soo pleasant and penetrating.I had plate-full of pakodis(obviously prepared by mom :P) and a hot hot cup of adrak ki chai (hehe..made by me :D) ,Ah! My favourite tracks in the background and me having a nice conversation with my family.Perfectly PERFECT.I'm loving it all.It is these small little moments that maketh the LIFE.

Thank you God! I'm HAPPY(Do I always need a reason to be so?).

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I'm singin' in the rain,

Just singin' in the rain,
What a glorious feeling,
I'm happy again!
I'm laughing at clouds,
So dark, up above,
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love.
Let the stormy clouds chase
Ev'ryone from the place,
Come on with the rain,
I've a smile on my face. :)

~love and prayers

My first blogger Award

2010-06-28T20:33:00.000-07:00

......and I'm on Bliss.

Hello World,

How beautiful a day can be when kindness touches it! . Venice has been very kind and generous in considering me for the very cute 'Cherry on top award' ,mine first blogger award.I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks .I express my sincere and heartfelt gratitude to her for bestowing me with this happiness.I'll always cherish it.

Here it is

Now for The Rules:

1. Thank the person who gave this award to you

2. Copy the Award and put it on your Blog [Check]

3. List Three things that you love about yourself

4. Post a picture you love

5. Tag Five people you want to pass this award on to

------ Now to do accordingly,

1. Many, many thanks to you!
    You brought real delight
    And helped make my day
    More happy and more bright.

2. Has already been Done.

3. Three things that I love about myself:

I'm Honest.
I'm a Good Listener.
I'm a Hopeful Realist.

4. A Picture I Love

5.Tag Five people you wish to pass this award onto
Hmmn ,so the lucky ones are(in no specific order)~

Congo!

~love and prayers

'First' Trivia

2010-06-24T23:31:00.000-07:00

Hello All,

The first things in life are always special .They are always cherished by the immortal part of our memory.Their excitement lingers somewhere deep within the soul.So down the memory lane I'm listing here a few.Happy Reading.

1st Day of the Year-New year,New resolutions
1st Birthday Wish
1st Gift by a Dear Friend
1st Day at School
1st Rank in class for the 1st time-I never got :(
1st Best friend
1st Performance at Stage
1st Award/Appreciation
1st Exam of 1st Boards-Darr ke aage jeet hai :)
1st Morning Tea-Ah!
1st Outing with Friends :)
1st Day 1st Show of a Movie-Ever watched?.
1st Crush-Innocence at it's peak :P
1st Love -Any Memories? :P
1st Year of College-Unforgettable!
1st Niteout :D
1st Massbunk :D
1st Degree
1st Rain of Monsoons-Divine Rhythm.
1st Day in Office
1st Salary-Sheer Pride!
1st Date with Fiance/Fiancee
1st Kid

and last but not the least

1st Blog post/1st Comment/1st Follower :)

PS:You can further add to the 'First Trivia' in the comments below. :)

PS:Thank you for all of your valuable comments.Keep reading.

THINK GOOD

2010-06-17T19:46:00.000-07:00

Age of Nanotechnology~

                 'THINGS' getting Small,

                 'THINKING' even Smaller :(

It is observed "Our life is the reflection of our own thoughts".

                    Let's THINK GOOD. :)

Success

2010-06-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

   To laugh often and much;
    to win the respect of wise and intelligent people
    and the affection of children;
    to earn the appreciation of honest criticism
    to endure the betrayal of false friends;
    to appreciate beauty
    and find the best in others;
    to be humble to all;
to spread love and harmony;
    to leave this world a bit better
    whether by a good poetry,
    a garden patch,
    or a redeemed social condition;
    to know even one life has breathed easier
    because you have lived....

This is to have all succeeded …..(Anonymous)

I wish to be successful this way.And you?

~stay happy :)

To all my boy friends!

2010-06-01T06:47:00.000-07:00

Well if you have not noticed the space between 'boy' and 'friends' and you are expecting something cheesy here,you are wrong.This silly grin on your face will soon halt on a serious note.

I was heavily grieved today after reading another dowry debacle of a 23 year old who was murdered barbarously by a satan who unfortunately had become her husband,just some 3 hours before. Shame on humanity!There are atleast 5 cases of dowry deaths daily on my local newspaper itself.And we proudly boast that our literacy rate is increasing.Damn it! If you are incapable of feeding another person in your family who's gonna be your other half for the rest of your life,why the hell you sought to marry?How can you sell your soul for a hefty sum or an Indigo Manza or a Diamond ring when you can't manage to have them all by your own very self. Even if it's not you but your parents why don't you stand against something which is verily immoral? Why you 'kuldeepaks' end up burning an innocent heart?Sorry, but if you can't stop all this (atleast in your case)then you do not qualify enough,neither morally nor legally to tie knots(with any girl whatsoever).Be a GAY man! Yeah,you read it right-Be a GAY you looser!

Your overwhelmingly patriarchal attitude depicts nothing but your feeble-mindedness. I'm not asking you to be a feminist but be human atleast.I remember a (female) friend of mine whose scooty once skid away due to rains.A gang of guys(who appeared to be from good families) was standing at the road side.Just when one of them came forward to help her up(respect to him!),the other 'decent' people shouted aloud "abe paagal hai kya,ladki hai,pitegaa____".???.There are so many incidents like this.And these very people never loose a chance to pass comments on girls,or to flirt or to whistle or to even abuse them at public places.The other henious crimes knows no bound.Should I feel pity for their moms and sis?

I admit you are a smarter sex,and we the dumber one (what if we grab top ranks in even the toughest examinations of the country).We compete with you and make our way to various engineering/medical colleges and universities.But in the end ,we are WOMEN.A greater percentage of us will have to leave our job for our families.And we do, because we understand,we care,we love,we sacrifice and we believe (in you).Ain't this the reason that you love your mom so much?The irony is that you claim yourself as the superior sex.But do you really think you are?

So all 'maa kaa laadlaas' if you had the patience to read this all,and have come upto this point,do give it a thought! Learn to respect women iff you wanna get back the same.

PS: I was very enraged today.Mujhe gussa bauhat aata hai :(

PS: I had no intentions to hurt any body.I know all guys are not the same.I have a lot many good people around me.My apologies to them and to you iff you are one of them.

PS: I know all girls are not good. A ' Get well soon' message to all of them.

A Letter to God

2010-05-22T11:35:00.000-07:00

Dearest God,

I thank You here for all of Your abundant blessings. For sharing with me all the good in this world, for all the joys in my life. For leading me through trials and fears , for showing me the light even in times of great darkness. For giving me strength to come this far, for all of this and much more, I THANK YOU,GOD.

Entangled in the threads of time I own loads of reminiscences to cherish forever and a few very happy moments that will always linger in the immortal part of my memory.Most importantly I do not have any regrets from the past and I'm hopeful enough for the future.And all this makes my present even happier. I'm HAPPY.

There had been spells when I was in low spirits too but thank you Lord for developing in me the understanding that there are people who need your blessings more than I do.I'm saddened heart and soul when I espy crestfallen,unfortunate and distressed faces in the milieu with those "WHY ME?" expressions.I know you strive to make all happy.I also want to volunteer you along.

O dearest Lord help me make an orphan smile.Make me a friend of someone never loved or the one who has always cried alone and never did anyone ever touch their pain.I pray thee to grant my share of happiness to the one who needs it most today-a poor girl who has not eaten since two days and is yet hungry today or a young couple who's only 6 year son is in coma with 6 brain tumors or a woman who lost her husband and 25 year old son in a car accident or a 23 year girl who is ditched badly by her boyfriend.O God give them the courage to fight back.Bless them all.

O Supreme Lord I pray thee
To make my words sound euphony and/or rhapsody.
To kindle my spirit with all your love so that I can rejuvenate all despondent souls.
To awaken my senses so that I can always appreciate the beautiful,the kind,the nice,the truth,the admirable,the eternal and the pure ,in 'everything' and in 'nothing'.

I remember I have not yet written that I love you dearest Lord,always.With my soul always on knees before you,

Your beloved daughter,

Soulmates!!!

2010-05-16T11:54:00.000-07:00

Their soul is always on knees for each other.Their heart beats in perfect resonance.Their breaths when assorted creates a divine rhythm.Their words for each other is but hymns and prayers and silence is just another symphony.Their 'oneness' is beyond humane expectations ,reality being more alluring than their dreams. They are more than just friends,they are more than just lovers......

The feeling of being together always reflects in their eyes.The unadulterated ,pure pearls(which confine within the corners of their eyes) beckons the sheer happiness of their conjunction.It is so a crystal clear that they could see through the other's heart.Their soul ,draped in rainbow ,disperses all colors of love.The way they adore,the way they hold,the way they touch,the way they look,the way they love,the way they care,the way they respect,the way they trust,the way they love.....is all pre-eminent ,incomparable and inimitable.

Their love was not the love at first sight or a thing called infatuation. It was neither a choice,a want,a need or a desire nor a contract ,a deal or a compulsion.But.....It was something destined,revered blessedness ,serendipity ,beauty in its purest form.'The Divine Will' I call it.It was not that they were made for each other.But that they were always for each other and that is why they were made human to feel the warmth of their love at depths and breadths.

They oft say to each other the three miraculous words,if not through the lips then through the eyes.But more than that they whisper each other's name in their prayers and say to themselves.....

"I care for him and I'll live for him ,always, for US."

"I care for her and I'll live for her, always, for US."

Their story is unwritten.Infact it could not be written because their love is ineffable,limitless,beyond eternity,growing each day passing by that could not be woven into words..............They are true soulmates!!!If after the death of one you find the name of other engraved on the ashes,I hope you won't be amazed.

PS--I seriously don't know what it is.....fiction,philosophy or something very random.It is ideal,incomprehendible ....but I love perfection!!!

PS--I know it won't resemble anybody... :P....so no disclaimers.

PS--I'm done with 4th semester exams of Btech.. :)..If everything goes well I'd soon be a 50% EnGiNeeR.. :D

PS--Please leave your comments.Thank you!!!

~love and prayers

If I were...

2010-05-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

If I were a month, I’d be February.

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Wednesday.

If I were a time of day, I’d be 1.27 AM.

If I were a season,

I'd be Autumn.

If I were a direction, I’d be East.

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Revolving chair.

If I were a planet,

I'd be Neptune.

If I were an animal, I’d be Sparrow.

If I were a liquid, I’d be Tea.

If I were a tree,

I’d be a Red Maple tree.

If I were an element, I’d be water.

If I were a tool, I’d be screw driver.

If I were a flower,

I’d be a White Lily.

If I were a gemstone, I’d be Aquamarine.

If I were a kind of weather, I’d be a soft breeze at night.

If I were a musical instrument,

I’d be a Guitar.

If I were a color, I’d be Blue.

If I were an emotion, I’d be Hope.

If I were a fruit, I’d be Mango.

If I were a sound,

I’d be pattering of rain drops .

If I were a material, I’d be silk.

If I were a scent, I’d choose smell of earth after rain.

If I were an object,

I’d be a bunch of balloons.

If I were a food, I’d be delicious Ice cream sundae.

If I were a song, I’d be jab koi baat bigad jaaye...

If I were a body part,

I’d be the Eyes.

If I were a taste, I’d be sweet.

If I were a place, I’d be Home sweet Home.

If I were a facial expression,

I’d be a smile.

Ever wondered, If you were?????

~stay blessed...:)

A piece of me

2010-04-30T02:38:00.000-07:00

It feels

'great' to be loved,

'greater' to be trusted,

and 'greatest' to be respected.

My first day at college

2010-04-25T10:39:00.000-07:00

It was Monday, the 20th of July,2008 ,8:50 AM, when with the proud feeling of a budding Engineer I first reached the territory of Motilal Nehru National Institute of Technology,Allahabad(M-N-N-I-T).My stomach was spinning in circles.That college-waali-feeling was sprouting up.All sort of how,what and when's were hammering my empty head (tin-tin-tin-in) which was absolutely idle since the past 84 days.

After parking my scooty ,I headed towards the Dean Academic Office to enquire about the schedule of I'st semester students(MECHANICAL ENGINEERING in particular).There I met another girl who was also doing the same. There were exactly three similarities between us. First, we both were localite ,second we both were anxious and third both of us were in suits(no need to tell, why ? :P).Well, after a minute of our interaction a person from the office informed us that they have not yet received the new schedule and directed us to the Main Building(where the classes were to be held). We hastened our steps for it was already 9:00 by then.

Somehow I managed to find the Mechanical Engineering Department. There I met a Lady professor who by chance happened to be the then warden of KNGH(our girls hostel).I asked for her help. She said--"Oh, dear I do not have the time-table right now. It's there in the hostel no? ".Now this statement of hers was sudorific enough. I was dumbstruck. What to do now? . She probably figured out my state of mind and asked me my section .And I gave-W-H-A-T- like expressions. "Ma'am my branch is Mechanical" ,I said. To this she very humbly replied-"Beta but this does not ensures your section no?-A,B,C....we have 'six' in total you know.(She bragged and I was almost nerve-wrecked) .Ok let me see what I can do". And she asked me to wait.I had no other option. It was 9:10. She made certain calls and exactly after five minutes another lady arrived .Finally both of them confirmed that 'Saumya Srivastava ,Reg No:2008**** ' was admitted in C section.She handed me the corresponding time-table. After seeing it, I ,for the very first time realized the relevance of the saying 'kaala akshar bhains barabar' .Oh My God (No,it was rather like O--M--G)!!!What is this? MAT I, GS-7,IMP,IEP PHY(T),FN-5,EEE(P).It was like some encrypted code of FBI. I pitied my empty head. The other lady perhaps noticed the question mark on my face and before I ask her for more help, she stood up to show me the way to GS rooms— where my first class was scheduled- GS-7. I saw my watch and it read 9:19.Another O-M-G. After thanking the two, I finally hurried towards the GS, the GS Maze.Yeah, it was nothing less than a maze at the first sight.

My excitation was escalating almost exponentially with each step I took forward. And there it was - GS-7 at the dead end which almost took my breathe. About ninety set of unfamiliar eyes googled at me. I stood at the door for the nonce trying to intake the embarrassment of being twenty minutes late in the very first class of the very first day of college. “May I come in sir?” , I managed to ask. The professor looked at me and then at his watch(which was quite obvious) and then again at me and after a thought of second or two allowed me to get inside.I hurried myself to the first empty bench which was unfortunately the very last . “It was not supposed to be like this” ,I thought and settled down. By this time my watch read 9:23.I took out my register ,a black pen and a blue pen (for I had planned to start off neatly)and gave a quick glance to the room. To my utter surprise I was the only girl amidst the batch of 90 ‘to-be-mechanical-engineers’ .This was a bouncer to my cerebellum. I shook my head.(“kisne kaha tha mechanical le lo,aaraam se electrical mil rahi thi ".Phew!!)

I kept aside all the disgruntling thoughts for the time being and tried to concentrate .The professor had the looks of Einstein’s grand grandson. And it took me a minute to realise that he will be teaching us ‘Theory of Relativity’ (what a co-incidence you see) and what he has written on the board was the syllabus for the entire sem. I took a deep sigh and started penning down the things. Exactly at 9:50 two more girls entered the class and while they were explaining their reasons for being late I send a few thankyou’s to God. Well the Sir left the class exactly at 10:00 with the general warning of being punctual from the next lecture.

The next class was supposed to be of EEE(L).???.Everybody was excited to see the next professor and to know the new subject as well. Alas! No one came .Nor did anyone moved out(with the fear of being ragged).I was trying to hide my uneasiness by admiring the ‘interior’ of the room-the grey walls, whirling fans, spider-webs,olive-green 'black-board' and ‘open-forever’ window panes. It was 11:00 by now and the next lecture was to be 'ELC ’ .???. We were again excited. We waited for 5minutes,10 minutes,15 minutes but nobody arrived. And I started wondering if this is a good college?. Well somehow another hour passed.

The fourth period was scheduled MAT I. And my common sense said it must be Mathematics (my favourite ).And I wondered if anyone is going to come. Atlast the mathematics professor entered the room at 12:05 and he gave the impressions exactly of ‘tension lene ka nai,dene ka’. He started off with 3-D Coordinate geometry without any prior interactions."AARGGGHHH",I murmured. Well he made us solve some questions and I was among the few who raised their hands for having solved them. “My brain is not that idle” , I thought. The class got over at 1:00 PM.

I again browsed the time-table.The only thing which I could get was that 1:00 PM to 2:30 PM was the lunch time and the entire second half was vacant for the day. Vacants are always blessings you know. But that day it couldn’t appeal us. .I exchanged a few words with the girls and finally left for home.

I reached my place at about 1:15 PM .Papa was also there for lunch. Both ma and papa were surprised to see me home so early(after all they knew it was scheduled to be till 5:30 ). I told them the entire story. My father just said "Beta it's a government college.But it's good.”. My mother was happy that the lunch is of one and a half hour duration so I could very easily come home ,have my lunch ,take a half-an-hour rest and then again leave for college. Mothers always love to cook for their children(and their husbands too).It gives them immense pleasure .And so she served her tired daughter with the best food in the world.

It was 2:30 by now and I was feeling very sleepy since I got up at 6:00 in the morning to ensure everything goes well.Huh!. So I switched on my AC, lied down on my cozy bed, still wondering how to manage a cryptographer who could decipher my encrypted time-table for the next day.

PS--My branch is now Electronics after two successive slidings from Mech and IT..... :)

love and prayers

I,Me,Myself

2010-04-20T18:41:00.000-07:00

Hello there,

Well ,finally I have come up with my first ever post on blog(feeling good!!!) and that too with the most simple yet herculean one --the ineffable 'about me' description.

So,here it goes...

I am registered in my death certificate as...oops .sorry...in my birth certificate as Saumya Srivastava.And my near and dear ones call me Saumya aka Sam.

I am simple,serene,silent,shy,slow,sensible ...all 's'...sounds strange...isn't it? But I have few non-s qualities too(:P) like I'm innocent(I know I am),disciplined,reserved(ad nauseam),patient etc etc.

I love reading and writing.

I am a very good listener but a very bad speaker(hey but mind you..I have a good voice quality...:P)

I'm not an optimist coz that doesn't always works so I can say I'm a hopeful realist.

I always prefer to believe the best of everybody.This really saves a lot of trouble.And I never underestimate anyone.

I'm not the one who always complains,but the one who seeks solutions.

I love to be honest.

I respect wisdom, age and intelligence(in order).
I readily forgive and(try to) forget.

I try(yes I try) to treat everyone politely-be it my family,friends,relatives or my maid,a greengrocer or a salesman at the garments shop.

I acknowledge the dignity of labour.

I feel sorry for the poor and the unfortunate(I do) .

I believe in God (and hope that HE also believes in me).

I'm friendly ...but very bad in making friends(coz of my reserved persona) but I have been bestowed two super-duper cool idiots(me being the third one :P) who enjoy the designation of my bestest friends(for eternity +) and I bet they are few of the purest souls on earth(Thankyou God!!!).

I'm a philanthropist i.e I love all humankind.God Bless All.

I'm a perpetual learner.

Last but certainly not the least--My way of life is

"Think Big.Do Good.Be nice and relish every small pleasure in life."

(written by me only :P)

Now comes the darker side(And I know only this will get to your archive :P).

Well I'm grudging at times(I wish I wasn't).

I really speak too less(and it irritates a lot).

I am too lazy(always working at the eleventh hour).

I 'm stubborn and stupid at times(the 's' factor has come up again you see..:P).Sorry but can't help it.

So,this was everything about me but not all me.Few people might like me ,others might not and few might hate me as well (I hope I'm not that bad) .To this I very humbly say -'Freedom of Expression' is your birth right man!!!Enjoy it....:)

PS: All the information furnished here is to the best of my knowledge :P

PS: Any resemblance to anybody is purely coincidental :P

PS: I'm subjected to change(well..everybody is),but for the better. :)

PS: Since this is my first post...so a lot of errors might have crept in.I seek your forgiveness and look forward to your comments and criticisms.Thank you.

love and prayers